kereta aku..

kononnya pagi nie.. dengan semangat waja.. bgn awal... sampai ada org tegur... 'awalnya mandi'... well..... sesekali aku nak awal... dah lama x siap awal...dolu-dolu aku la manusia awal...

dan.. dolu-dolu gak.. aku slalu leterkan adik aku bila dia calarkan penutup rim tayar keta aku.. a.k.a. rim cover... aku pun pelik... asal dia keluar jer.. bila balik.. mesti ada jer la kesan calar kat situ.. camana dia drive pun aku x tau.

rasanya sumer empat2 dia dah calarkan..

itu salah satu sebab aku x tukar ke sport rim.. bayangkan kalu sport rim aku pun dia calarkan... mesti muka dia aku calarkan gak.... ehem.. blh tahan ganas aku nie..

itu mukadimah jer...

n td.. kat tol.. aku dengan jayanya mencalarkan rim cover tu.. n banding ngan y penah adik aku buat.... ini paling teruk.... huhhuhuhuhu...

ni y aku calarkan...

ni y adik aku calarkan

amacam??? padan muka aku.... huhuhuhuuhuhuhuhuuuuuuu....

P/S: jgn kasitau dia.. nanti dia kutuk aku tahap gaban...

Yes.... madam..

Yes.. Madam...
all this while...
whatever proper job...
I'm the one..
yes.. Madam...
every little detail...
every single words...
every particular data...
I'll be providing it...
yes.. madam...
Take all the glory...
yes.. madam....
Take all the awards..
yes... madam
Kindly proceed...
kindly go to hell...!

Yet another Saturday

yes... another saturday...

this one... A BIG,BiG,bIG project awaits...

Nope.... not another shopping spree or that kind of stuff...

this saturday is to fullfil my duty....

after buying the ingredients... I shoot off to fullfil the duty....

Know what..... I found my way easily.... not lost, not missed any junction... Yes... I do wanna brag 'bout it... I found it.. even a bit unsure... but I do manage....

In the morning... I've rec an info.... not to spoil my mood... I chose to ignore it...

After spending my time there... I'm a bit relieved... yes... I do miss her.... Whatever it is... even daily phone calls... still I need it...

On the way back.... A phone call did hurt.....

The plan is to drop by... pay a visit... have a nice chit chat.....

But...... WHY????
Do you really need to open the bleeding wound????

Do you have to sprinkle the salt in the open wound??? (yes...sprinkle... no chance to rub... the call was cut short... I do hang up!))

Do you really need to do that???

Can't you wait to check my emotional stability before you splurt it out???/

Sometimes....

you really do not know how to manage it....

you really do not know what happens...

and..

for sure...

you never really cares and...

you always fit yourselves...

So... no droppin' by, no visit.. no chit chat...

So long then...

Spoilt rotten heart brought home...

MY PROJECT turns out well...as well as it can be....

there's always a first time to everything.....

caiyok!!!!!

Alkisah Sabtu...

dah beberapa sabtu aku lalui...
Semua nya dgn perasaan kacau bilau... kebelakangan nie apa jer aku buat sumer x kena...
In order tu minimize all the damages that can occur... baik la aku steam off somewhere... siankwn aku... a.k.a mangsa... Miss L... A very dear friend... even aku pun rs cam kaki buli bla ngan dia..kekekeekkekeeee...




the very first Saturday..
dia dlm pantang... aku mmg jem.. nak tgk movie.. dia layan aku.. so aku bw dia p try bl tiket... ampes... dah abih.... next show.. lambt sgt.. so.. kami jenjln jer la kat mall tu...
kami msk sumer kedai y jual bj.. coz kami ada annual dinner... but satu pn x bl.. biasa la aku kan.. try sumer... but buy nothing...
then dia nk bl broadband... punya la kami melongok dpn kedai tu... blh salesman tu wat bodo jer.... ampesssssss tul la... apa ingat kami x mampu bl ker????

tau la kami nmpk cam budak2....

P/S bukan persaan yer... ada salesman bg kami arga student ta bila nk bl brg... dia y kata kami cam student.. murah oooo... kalu tau kami bl byk2... kekekeeeee...

lps mkn.... kmi blk... dia bl anklet jer... aku???? biasa la... tukang try..


then....
the next saturday...
dia ada hal kat opis...so aku keluar la buat skandal..
penat jer.... bodekan aku x jln..nak tgk movie.. tp citer tu x keluar lagikkkk...... last2 aku blk gak ngadap Miss L aku y bz tahap gaban....
berkulat aku tgu dia blk rmh... sejam aku tgu... dia x blk2....
padan muka aku.. aku siap ugut lg... dia x ondway gakk.... aku blah....






wei.. mana tahan... perut aku dah senget menahan panggilan alam tau.....
then mlm tu kami p mkn kenduri.... dia y still dlm pantang telah dgn hebatnya melanggar pantang....ssssssyyyyyhhhhhh..... jgn gtau sesaper... tau kat mak cik... conpem... putih aku kene basuh...

the other saturday....
pg2 aku ada function...event kot....
hampes tol... org bahagian pertahanan negara nie... bab y stamina mmg hebat... cam x peluh jer aku tgk... buat y flexible method... x blh bend dgn baik.... camana kalu diorg ni kene lwn ngan org y hebat kungfu?????
peluh2 tu la kami main games...
ada ka patut Miss L amik gambo aku melompat... mmg la huduh tahap cipan.... kalu aku tau gambo tu lepas kat tgn org... jaga dia... =) hehehee....
tp walaupun huduh.. aku menang ooooo....










dah puas merapu... sumer p mkn... coz mls nk msk opis...... syh.. dendiam dah la.... aku x per.. bos y bawak..

Miss L belasah mknn y dia jarang mkn









then belasah sepinggan lg....









parah tahap kelaparan kwn aku nie...

aku akhirnya berjaya menontonkan diri aku kat movie...
dengan hebatnya aku melangkah ke kaunter amik tiket....

aku: sy pny booking number y ini (sambil bg hp aku kat dia)
dia: oooo... meh cnie...
dia: eh..... (sambil kerut2 dahi)
aku: x leh bc ker... meh sy tlg bacakan
dia: tp nie booking kat GSC
aku: ye la.. kat cnie la...
dia: tapi cnie TGV bkn GSC...
aku: hah...! alamak ye laaaaaaa.... (dlm ati..... oh tidakkkkkkkkkkk!!!!)
Miss L: heheheheeee.... booking kat mana nie... mamai ka????
aku:.............

padan muka aku kan.....

esk pun saturday gak....
apa aku nak buat????????????????????????????

Peace. Love. Respect

Last nite...
tending the turmoil heart, unbalance emotions.... note: NOT PMS!!!... I spend the whole day reading my new book.... as latest as it can be in the market, it's sure latest in my collection.. the Stalemate by my fav writer....
in between the book, the APM last nite, and my internal war... I notice this...
for the peace, love and respect to the ......... world!.This words was muttered by the award winner...

Yes...
For Peace, Love and Respect!!!!

I really required this at this very moment!!!!! From me to myself....

akibat turut ati...

kikiki...

aku pun cam x caya jer...

akibat turut kan ati...

tiap2 ari dlm mgu nie aku g shopping

bahya tul

n terbaru...

ari nie...

aku beli nie

pastu aku bl nie gak....

ni la akibat turut ati...

pastu kena lak layan kepala ngan kaki beli ...

so...

kami sama2 bl...

kikikikikikikiki....

lain kali...

bila tension2 camnie....

aku x mo shopping bawa hbag n kad atm....

nak bw ic ngan tambang ja...

br padan muka aku.....

akibatnya....

bajet aku bulan nie..

hancusssssssssssssssss!!!!!!

Aku bukan.....

aku pun x mo

aku pun x suka

nak buat camana
walau dah pujuk ati...
walau dah pujuk-pujuk ati...
walau dah ugut logik...

aku still x leh...

ntah bila blh abih..
even the annoying ones has leave..
even the most irritating one has gone
still...
y sesak dah abis..
y sakit dah kurang
tapi...


marahku bukan kerana suka.. marahku bukan kerana hampa.. marahku marah kecewa
like she said.... I'm No Angel

17 April

hari ini datang lagi..
alangkah baiknya andai.........

Dulu...
akulah penjagamu
akulah pelindungmu
akulah pendampingmu
di setiap langkah - langkahmu
itu janji y pernah terucap

Kini...
kuteringat hati
yang bertabur mimpi
kemana kau pergi cinta
perjalanan sunyi
engkau tempuh sendiri
kuatkanlah hati
Sendiri lagi...
menongkah arus duniawi...

Dan...
ingatkah engkau kepada
embun pagi bersahaja
yang menemanimu sebelum cahaya
ingatkan engkau kepada
angin yang berhembus mesra
yang kan membelaimu
Moga ada y menyambutku di hujung jalan sana
Moga ada y membimbingku menempuh hari muka

Maafkan aku..
Tiada doa untuk kebahagiaanmu
Andai kesengsaraan ini
berterusan

Atas derita yang kau sembahkan

Salam untukmu...
-aku y ingin membenci-

Aku Jual Ikan

ya aku jual ikan
salah ker????
berdosa ker???
bila y asing itu bermaharajalela di keliling aku
bila y asingtu kacau keamanan aku
bila y asing itu x penah aku kenal
siapa y asing itu????
tiba2 aku jadi jual ikan...
bila saja y asing itu ada..
pernah aku merungut bila di ganggu????
penah aku x layan????
penah aku kurang ajar???
y asing itu datang tanpa maklumat....
tapi aku y jadi jual ikan....
fine.....
aku JUAL IKAN ari nie.....
tengokla......

Sesi Menjerit

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sekian, sesi menjerit tamat.
tata

Munginkah??

bahagia itu ada di situ
bahagia itu tersenyum
bahagia itu megah di sana
bahagia itu buat semua
bahagia itu ada dalam tawa...
bahagia itu ada dalam senda guraunya
bahagia itu ada dalam dakapan kasihnya
bahagia itu ada di mana2
tapi mungkinkah..
bahagia itu bila aku penemannya
bahagia itu bila aku bersamanya
bahagia itu bila aku pengiringnya
mungkinkah
bahagia itu aku pemiliknya?

aduhhh

macam mana nie??
nak buat apa nie??
boleh ker nie??

aku bingung.............

A liltle on me

Peta personaliti aku adalah seperti berikut:
ISTJ: (I):Introversion , (S):Sensing, (T):Thinking , (J):Judging.

Kemungkinan Personaliti aku :
Life's natural organizers : Dependable, accountable, responsible. The quintessential manager type. A no-frills, work-hard/play-hard sort. Lives by the bottom line and can be very cost-conscious. Work comes first, then family and community

aku penah ditafsir sebegini...
-pemarah, peramah, pendiam-
dan ini adalah y paling tepat bila aku pikir2 balik...

p/s: tgh main2 kau jumpa yang ini... so kalu korang nak... try la..

A Shoulder To Cry On

Life is full of lots of up and downs

And the distance feels further when you're headed for the ground

And there is nothing more painful than to let you're feelings take you down

It's so hard to know the way you feel inside

When there's many thoughts and feelings that you hide

But you might feel better if you let me walk with you

By your side

And when you need a shoulder to cry on

When you need a friend to rely on

When the whole world is gone

You won't be alone, cause I'll be there

I'll be your shoulder to cry on

I'll be there

I'll be a friend to rely on

When the whole world is gone

You won't be alone

Cause I'll be there

All of the times when everything is wrong

And you're feeling like

There's no use going on

You can't give it up

I hope you work it out and carry on

Side by side

With you till the end

I'll always be the one to firmly hold your hand

No matter what is said or done

Our love will always continue on

Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on

Everyone needs a friend to rely on

When the whole world is gone

You won't be alone cause I'll be there

I'll be your shoulder to cry on

I'll be there

I'll be the one you rely on

When the whole world's gone

You won't be alone

Cause I'll be there!

And when the whole world is gone

You'll always have my shoulder to cry on....

My baby You!!

as i look into your eyes

i see all the reasons why
my life's worth a thousand skies
you're the simplest love i've known
and the purest one i'll own
know you'll never be alone
my baby you
are the reason i could fly
and 'cause of you
i don't have to wonder why
baby you
there's no more just getting by
you're the reason i feel so alive
though these words i say are true
they still fail to capture you
as mere words can only do
how do i explain that smile
and how it turns my world around
keeping my feet on the ground
i will soothe you if you fall
i'll be right there if you call
you're my greatest love of all
arianna i feel so alive

Semalam

semalam, dalam majlis tu.. aku buat apa y aku cakapkan selama ini... biar sapa jer y tanya..
x puas ati???? bukan masalah aku..
tujuan majlis?? berhibur... so... walau apa pun.. aku izinkan hati aku untuk berhibur... dan aku terhibur... dan puas... jadinya... matlamat majlis nie tercapai... ps: aku abaikan kecacatan y ada n kebodohan y nyata..

tapi...
di hujung2 mata aku... aku melihat kemungkaran y nyata.. aku akui aku bukan alim atau terlalu baik.. aku pun buat mende2 x senonoh...
tapi yang satu nie.... aku x penah teringin... syukur Allah ilangkan keinginan itu dari hati aku... cuma... iman aku x kuat untuk menegur,... aku hanya menegur di dalam hati.. moga Allah berikan pada mereka apa y telah dkurnia pada aku...

ya.. majlis untuk bersuka ria.. dalam suka itu.. jgn la hampiri y itu... mmg mudah terdorong... tapi tahanlah...
ya.. aku suka amat hadiri majlis2 macam tu... aku pun suka jugak ke lokasi gelap itu... tapi.. tiap kali.. aku berdoa agar y itu x aku cecahi... x aku sentuh atau aku disentuh oleh benda atau hal itu...
dan berdoa x ada y teringin membuat onar y mjerumuskan aku dgn y itu..
bersuka la... asal tau mana batasan.... jgn jadi sakai tapi jgn juga jadi munafik..

semalam juga..
aku tau bahawa aku dikelilingi oleh manusi2 y faham apa itu majlis n bersukaria... walau aku juga sedar... dsebalik y biasa.. ada rupanya y kurang teguh imannya...

Hari Ini

kebengangan semalam x ilang lg... seb baik bgn jer mata x bengkak... pastu lak isu kat ruang udara pasal 'kantoi'.. ya.. aku pun penah kantoi gak.. n bila dah kantoi, pandai2 la lepaskan diri.

& masuk ja opis.. ada saja la y menduga tahap kesabaran aku nie.. seb baik aku x kenal org pasukan khas y letupkan si altantuya tu.. kalu x.. ada gak la manusia di opis nie tinggal serpihan tulang..

sabar.. sabar.. sabar...

Miss L pun jadik cam aku.. dia pun meletup gak..

akibat manusia2 pencabar nie la, aku dengan jayanya mematahkan beberapa barang hak syarikat nie.. lantak la.. janji bukan barang personal aku.. kikikikikiki..
tu kes ari nie..

kes semalam lak..
aku ada jumpa satu blog baru.. very nice.. asyik dok memerap ja aku kat blog dia.. very cute..
n in between... aku dapat email dr org y kata aku sombong.. lantak aku la kan.... sombong ker, berlagak ker.. aku bukan minta duit mak bapak ko... sukati aku la...
n semalam gak.. aku tewas lagi... letih la layan jiwa nie... seb baik ujan.. kalu x... aku pun x tau aku akann sampai ke mana..

p/s: inilah rahmat Allah jadikan aku manusia rabun..

kadang-kadang

kadang-kadang
rasa teringin sangat
kadang-kadang
rasa nak sangat
kadang-kadang
mcam best sangat
tapi
jarang-jarang
aku dapat suma tu....

macam skrg nie...
rasa teringin sangat
rasa nak sangat
macam best sangat
tapi....

arwah pesan masa aku kecik2 dulu...
x elok....
nanti abis air dalam otak
terus x pandai..

nak buat macam mana?
nak sangat...
tapi pesan arwah camana???
kalau arwah masih ada...
leh la minta excuse kan...

Kala malam bulan mengambang...

Benarkah tiada bagiku

Ruang di hatimu untukku bertapak

Walaupun sejengkal jari

Agar dapat ku berdiri

Di ambang pintumu

Kemana hilangnya keroncong

Oh! cinta yang kita

Nyanyikan bersama

Ataupun aku yang bersalah

Hanya menepuk tangan sebelah saja

Tiada ku sangka akhirnya

Kau tutup semua

Pintu cinta untukku

Hinggaku termanggu tiada arah nak ku tuju

Membawa hatiku

***

Tangisan dalam ketawa

Sedu sedan menjadi syair cinta

Terasa ingin ku sentuh

Bayanganmu

Walau hanya seketika cuma

Agar hilang rindu dan dahaga

Agar pulih semangat kasih dan mesra

Seperti baru kenal cinta

Hari Yang Terang

My silver mornings are almost here... Add a terrible headache, a stressful day in the campaign with hot air, a mood swing due to every ladies' best friend, a limited time to do everything, a hp with low battery... then a call to the guardian of my sanctuary... plus several pills... the day ends early...

Then...

With new spirit, a numbing pain at the back of the head, a very determined me RUSH off for the silver morning... Hwwwaaaaaaa!!!! My TnG card missing...! and I'm at the toll already... Phew.... managed to squeze my Cute Puteri to the cash lane...

Another huddle... ONLY RM5.00 left in the magic case! and everywhere... HUHUUHUHUHHHUUU... can pay with my prepaid credit or not?

When I reach it, I got a Very nice parking space! Something nice after all....

Thank You!!! Alhamdulillah!

A wish came a bit late then... yet... thanks... it's the thoughts that counts!

A Wish Answered.. The Silver Mornings are Here!

Bunga-Bunga Matahari
Embun Mekar Di Taman Hati...

Terima panggilan yang memberi harapan..
Satu doa dimakbulkan
Satu peluang diberikan
Satu jalan dibukakan

Moga yang diimpi menjadi realiti..
Doakan Aku!!!

Wanita Melayu

Yesterday..

On d way back..

There is a lady driver...

Trying to cut the queue..

While everybody else had been in the line from 5 minutes before that...

Out of sudden she appear...

With her dark Proton Wira

The registered number WHR4232

Her lady companion also seems encouraging her to cut in..

When her intrusion was blocked..

Both seems unsatisfied..

A lady doing this???

Very shameful..

Never learn about attitude?? or simply ignorance??

What a shame.... After 50 years of independence...

This citizen still underdevelop... not like the country...

Furthermore... this citizen is a Malay...

What a shame...

Mana ADAB SOPAN WANITA MELAYU???

Pity......

April Fool

The reason of April Fool????
Do we have to make fun of people? Play tricks on them?
Sometimes the jokes hurt, some people cannot accept it, or it's just plainly humiliating.