on Public Holiday

plan:

• picnic @PD wih staff
• shopping spree for new handbag
• movie day

actual:

WHOLE day at home. disabled.

as I watched Greys Anatomy

her monologue was about sleep

'When in the dark n you feel alone, you are not alone in the dark'

at this very moment

that was me

in dark n all very lonely

in a room full of people, i am all alone

when everyone laughing

i'm still shedding tears inside

with few hurdles in my life

struggling to survive the challlenge

in my desparation

i hurt u

so sorry

forgive me please

please....... i'm not that strong

a real friend who got the real ears n shoulders are all i need

yet who am i to ask for such perfection

i am down, yet i look so strong

i am crying yet u can hear my laugh

if only.........................

dear, truly, i am so sorry